Meditation Monday: Judge Me

“The Lord judges the peoples; judge me, O Lord, according to my righteousness and according to the integrity that is in me.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭7:8‬ ‭ESV‬

“Only God can judge me.”

I’ve heard people say this before, and I'm sure you have too. Usually it’s because they feel like someone is judging them and they don’t like the judgment they’re getting from their fellow human. In order to feel better, it’s easy to think, “Well, no human’s judgment matters.” So we put the task on God.

“Only God can judge me.” Are you sure you want Him to? If you don’t want a person to be judging your actions, what makes you think God’s opinion will be any better? More than that, His is the only opinion that matters! If God were to judge you, what would He say?

This is definitely not the funnest thing to think about. When I ask myself that, it forces me to take a good, hard look at myself. And I don’t always like what is revealed. It’s painful. Sometimes it’s just too easy to live how I want to, and I’d rather ignore the fact that I am purposefully choosing to live in a way that is not pleasing to the Lord. Because the blame can be put on only me. I made those decisions. And I really don’t want to be judged for my decisions.

“But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭11:31-32‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Crazy enough, it’s actually a good thing to let God judge us. I know, it sounds scary and makes us realize that we fall short. And that is exactly the point. We fall short. But God is here to help.

If we allow the Lord to judge us, He will correct us.

For the LORD corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.Proverbs 3:12 NLT

But no one likes being disciplined! (amiright?) Growing up I hated being disciplined. I wanted to do what I wanted to do without consequences! Without being corrected! But my parents loved me too much to let me have my way when they knew my way was wrong.

Our heavenly father is the same way. He loves us so much. THAT is why he corrects us. Not to condemn us or make us feel guilty, but rather so we can live in His promises. He corrects us in love.

Application

Here are some questions you can ask yourself to “judge” yourself.
Are there areas in my life in which I’m disobeying God?
Am I spending time with Him daily through prayer, Bible reading, and fasting?
Are my words, actions, attitude, and thoughts honoring Him?
What areas do I need to improve in?

Are you ready to ask what David did?

Pray: “Judge me, oh Lord. Point out the areas in my life that aren’t pleasing to you. Correct me in Your love. Help me in my shortcomings. Discipline me so I will not be condemned with the world. Open my ears to hear your instructions. Open my eyes to see and understand the laws written in Your word. I will obey your instruction and correction.”

Meditation Monday: Even When

They refused to obey and were not mindful of the wonders that you performed among them, but they stiffened their neck and appointed a leader to return to their slavery in Egypt. But you are a God ready to forgive, gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and did not forsake them. 

Nehemiah 9:17 ESV

Background

Nehemiah has just rebuilt the wall to Jerusalem, and all the people are gathered round after a week of fasting to listen to the Law of God. The Levites (i.e. the guys who run the temple) use this as an opportunity to remind all the Israelites of the past. Specifically, how the Israelites didn’t do a good job trusting God when He led them out of Egypt. In fact, they had wanted to go BACK into slavery (!!) despite the fact that He rescued them in this amazing, supernatural showdown. 

Proof of supernatural showdown:

1) Signs and wonders and plagues to convince Pharaoh to let them go (See Exodus chapters 7 through 12)
2) He divided the sea so they could walk on dry land, then it closed back up after they had crossed, effectively drowning the Egyptians who were chasing them to bring them back to be slaves again.
3) He provided a pillar of cloud to lead them in the day, and a pillar of fire to light the way they should go at night.
4) God provided manna for them so they never had to go hungry.
5) Brought water from the rock for them to drink.

There’s literally no way that the Israelites should want to turn their backs on God after all that, right? Or think He’s not all powerful and capable of leading them into the promised land? But goodness, those Israelites. They’re notorious for turning their backs on God again and again and again.

They decided to put their trust in man instead of God, and they were ready to walk back to Egypt and put their chains back on themselves.

BUT

You are a God ready to forgive, gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and did not forsake them.

I don’t even know where to start at that verse, so let’s just start at the beginning. Despite the fact they had basically given up on God, He was ready to forgive. He’s gracious. He’s merciful. He had every single right to get angry with them and just forget them, but His anger is slow. He had every reason to just let them be and fail on their own. But He abounds in steadfast, unwavering love. He had no reason to stick around with them, but He didn’t leave them.

I’m grateful that He’s the same yesterday, today, and forever. Because I’m in need of those things. Of a God who forgives, extends his grace and mercy to me, is patient with me, loves me despite my faults, and sticks by my side even when I’m ignoring Him. I’ve been there before. Have you?

Let’s keep reading. It’s kind of a long passage, but stick with me.

Even when they had made for themselves a golden calf and said, ‘This is your God who brought you up out of Egypt,’ and had committed great blasphemies, you in your great mercies did not forsake them in the wilderness. The pillar of cloud to lead them in the way did not depart from them by day, nor the pillar of fire by night to light for them the way by which they should go. You gave your good Spirit to instruct them and did not withhold your manna from their mouth and gave them water for their thirst. Forty years you sustained them in the wilderness, and they lacked nothing. Their clothes did not wear out and their feet did not swell.

Nehemiah 9:18-21 (emphasis mine)

Okay, remember those awesome, supernatural things God did? Even when they forsook Him, He didn’t take those things away from them. Even when they appointed a leader to take them back to Egypt, God didn’t take away that promised land. Even when they REPLACED Him with a GOLD COW and blasphemed Him, He didn’t leave them.

Even when…

What follows those two words in your life? Even when… I gave up on His promises. Even when… I turned to the world for love and satisfaction. Even when… I tried to do things my own way. Even when… I left to live a life of sin.

He’s still with you.

He hasn’t forsaken you. He never will. You may leave God, but He will never leave you.

Even when...

Application

Whatever follows your personal "even when..." will try to make you doubt that God is still with you. Read these verses as reassurance. He will never leave you, even when.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; "He will never leave you nor forsake you."

Deuteronomy 31:6

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Deuteronomy 31:8

No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. "As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you."

Joshua 1:5

The Monday-est of Mondays

Today was a Monday. You know what I'm talking about. When Monday is the epitome of Mondays. That was today for me. I had too much to do. It was overwhelming me. It was raining. Monday.

Poor Casey just let me rant and complain to him. He offered me very good advice. I got mad at him because what he was saying was very true and I needed to hear it, even though I didn't want to.

After I got off the phone with him this afternoon, I had a good cry, sat down and got some of that to-do list done (it wasn't nearly as much as I had over-imagined it being), then spent some time talking to God. Then I found myself reading my journals. I have several. One of them is my personal journal where I write about what's going on in my life. The other one is labeled "God-captured thoughts." I use this journal to write prayers and anything I feel God is telling me or led me to during prayer and Bible reading.

After reading through both journals, the thing I realized is that God has never let me down. He takes care of me. He may not always answer my prayers the way I want them answered, but He takes care of things in His own way (and timing). It always comes back to... TRUST HIM.

Trust is my word for the year. Last year I realized I wasn't near as good at trusting God as I thought I was. And it's still a journey. A daily journey. Giving everything to God every day. Making sure I don't try to take back things and try to control my life myself. As it turns out, God is a whole lot better at running my life than I am!

The day ended on a high note. Through prayer and reflection upon how God has always come through for me, I was able to adjust my attitude. A few hours later, I called Casey back and we had a long phone call where he pointed out some really cool stuff in the Bible I'd never realized and spent lots of time reminding me he's always there for me. (I have a really amazing boyfriend.) Also I ordered a new Bible that I'm really excited about.

Monday, you won't conquer me. I've got Jesus on my side.

Photography Friday: Renaissance Festival

Still catching up on some editing from 2016! These are from November when a group of us went to the Renaissance Festival in south Louisiana. Gotta say I have an awesome crew of friends. 

Cookie Crazies

A few months ago, I was on the phone with Casey talking about how I needed to figure out how to raise some money for our upcoming missions trip. He told me I should sell my baked goods, specifically my cookies. Now granted, I hadn't been making cookies long, but people kept telling me me they were too pretty to eat. But I couldn't imagine people actually paying me for cookies. 

Thing is, Casey is really good at making his point, and his points are generally really good. "God gives you your passions and gifts, so you might as well use them for Him," he told me. "Besides, the worst thing that can happen is no one buys them and you have a lot of cookies to eat." That's hardly a bad thing! By the end of the week, I had created some Valentine cookie packages and took to Facebook to sell them.

My mind was blown. Absolutely blown by the response. I can still hardly believe it. Not only did that fundraiser go incredibly well, but I did another one for Easter, expecting way less interest. Instead, I got MORE interest. AND not only that, but people keep asking me to make cookies for events and parties. 

The Lord truly provides. 

Now I have a kind of sorta side business making cookies and the proceeds go towards my missions trips. (Yes, plural. I'm so excited!)

Anyways, here are a few of the cookies I've made in the last few months!

Speak Life

Words are powerful.

It's because of words that we are here on this beautiful planet today. God spoke. It happened. All things were created. With words.

Sure, we aren't God, but that doesn't mean our words don't have power.

...Whoever SAYS to this mountain, "be removed and be cast into the sea," and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he SAYS will be done, he will have whatever he SAYS.
Mark 11:23 NKJV (emphasis mine)

Wow. That says WHOEVER. That means me. That means YOU. Our words have power.

Makes you think about the words you say, huh? I know it does me!

It's really easy most days to say the negative things. "I look horrible this morning." "I can already tell today is going to be a bad day." "I can't stand her--did I tell you what she said to me last week?"

Positive words sometimes come harder. It's easy to talk about someone behind their back. (Especially now when we can stalk them on social media... guilty.) It's also easy to say negative things about ourselves, whether or not anyone else is around to hear those things.

How much do your words really matter? A lot.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.
Proverbs 18:21 ESV

The words you say contain the power of life and death. Positive words bring life. Negative words bring death.

Are you killing or giving life to your friends? To your situation? To yourself?

What are your words declaring? Are you declaring for God's glory or for the enemy?

It's time we train ourselves to not only stop speaking negatively, but to start speaking positively. This can take some work! But you can do it. And you aren't alone. I'm working on this myself! Ever since I've started studying more about the power of words (I highly recommend this book), I've been trying to choose mine more carefully and speak LIFE. Not only about the people around me, but also about myself and my struggles.


Application:

Train yourself to speak life instead of death.

Instead of "I can't do this," say "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Instead of "I'm ugly," say, "I am beautiful."

Instead of "I'm depressed," say, "I have the joy of the Lord."

Instead of "I'm anxious," say, "God gives me peace that passes all understanding."

Pray the scripture:

Lord, make me aware of what I speak over my life and those around me. Set a guard over my mouth. Keep watch over the door of my lips. (Psalm 141:3)

Do not let unwholesome talk come out of my lips, but rather let my words be good and helpful, encouraging those who hear them. (Ephesians 4:29)

Photography Friday: A Day at the Zoo

Happy Friday!

These photos are actually from a few months ago, but I'm just getting around to posting them! Actually I've been going through and editing some older photos (late 2016/early 2017) over the last few days, so I plan on sharing them soon! Life's been fun!

In January, Casey took me to the New Orleans zoo (he's figured out I'm pro- anything to do with animals) and we had a blast! It was a beautiful day with perfect weather. I'd never been to the New Orleans zoo before, but it was really awesome! Definitely worth checking out!